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The talks below are listed in chronological order. The abbreviations used are defined as follows:

     SAT Saturday Dharma Talk
     SES Sesshin Dharma Talk
     EB Ezra Bayda
     EH Elizabeth Hamilton

CD# TYPE    TITLE
08-19-03-EH  SES Pebble-Pond-Ripples
08-21-03-EB SES “Appreciate This Precious Life”
09-07-03-EB SAT At Home in the Muddy Water
09-13-03-EB SAT The Aspiration to Be Free
09-27-03-EH SAT Mindfulness in Action
10-04-03-EB SAT Three Helpful Daily Life Practices
10-11-03-EB SES Transforming the Energy of Anger
10-18-03-EH SAT Maturity Levels as Practice
11-01-03-EB SAT What Is the Essence of Practice?
11-08-03-EB SES “Cheerful Perseverance Is the Key to Success”
11-09-03-EH SES Burnout and Aspiration
11-29-03-EH SAT Aspiration and Burnout - Panel Discussion
12-27-03-EB SES The Great Escapes
12-29-03-EH SES What’s Really Important
01-03-04-EB SAT Working with Emotional Pain
01-24-04-EH SAT The Razor’s Edge - a MAP - ?
02-14-04-EH SES Fingers Pointing at the Moon
02-21-04-EB SAT Saying “Yes” to Difficulties
03-06-04-EH SAT Koans of Conditioning
03-20-04-EB SAT What Is Practice in This Moment?
04-03-04-EB SAT Is This All There Is?
04-06-04-EH SES Clouds and Sky
04-08-04-EB SES Forgiveness Practice
04-17-04-EH SAT The Chemistry and Physics of Practice
05-01-04-EB SAT The Cocoon of Fear
05-14-04-EB SES Two Streams in Practice
05-15-04-EH SES Not 2: Relying on Heartmind - (Dual Awareness)
05-29-04-EH SAT Hakuin and Hurting
06-19-04-EB SAT Basic Practice Questions
06-22-04-EB SES Detours in Practice
06-24-04-EH SES Missing Peace
07-03-04-EH SAT Practice Period - Gaps in Practice
07-17-04-EB SAT Student Teacher Relationship, Part 2
08-07-04-EB SAT The Bigger Picture
08-14-04-EH SAT Awakening in Hard Times – Panel Discussion
08-17-04-EH SES The Silence
08-19-04-EB SES Freedom from Fear
08-28-04-EH SAT Emptiness Is Form (Experiencing Inside-Out)
09-11-04-EB SAT The Three Breaths Practice
09-25-04-EH SAT Panel Discussion
10-09-04-EB SES What Is Meditation?
10-16-04-EB SAT Practicing with Politics
10-30-04-EH SAT Current Events and What Is Most Important
11-12-04-EB SES Basic Sitting Instructions
11-13-04-EH SES Kyosei’s Voice of the Raindrops: Finding Our True Voice
11-27-04-EB SAT Do the Right Thing
12-04-04-EB SAT Ordinary Mind Teachers Panel (Elizabeth, Ezra, Elihu, Barry, Larry, Anna)
12-11-04-EB SAT Basic Questions, Part 2
12-27-04-EB SES The Three Breaths Practice, Part 2
12-29-04-EH SES Lonesome Valley, Path of Liberation
01-08-05-EH SAT New Year’s Resolution: Remembering to Remember
01-22-05-EB SAT Saying “Yes”; Intentional Suffering
02-19-05-EB SES Laziness and Intention
02-26-05-EH SAT Loss
03-05-05-EB SAT “Let It Be”
03-19-05-EB SAT Is Practice Hard?
03-22-05-EH SES Grow Up, Wake Up
03-24-05-EB SES Four Steps to Love
04-02-05-EH SAT Precepts: Skillful Speech
04-09-05-EB SAT The Myth of Fixing Ourselves
04-16-05-EH SAT Community, Communication, and Intention
04-30-05-EB SAT Most Helpful Techniques
05-14-05-EH SES Where’s the Zen I: Dual Awareness (Not Two)
05-15-05-EB SES Nothing’s Wrong – Just Be
05-21-05-EH SAT Where’s the Zen II: Words
06-04-05-EB SAT The False Promise
06-18-05-EH SAT Avoidance, Ambition and Aspiration – Practice Period Panel
06-21-05-EB SES Psychology of Lying
06-24-05-EH SES “And”
07-02-05-EB SAT What Is Practice Period 2005?
07-09-05-EH SAT Gaps - Both Sides of the Coin
07-23-05-EB SAT The Five Pillars of Zen
08-06-05-EH SAT Musical Vows Bach Chorale #8 and Comments
08-09-05-EH SES How Should it Be; How Is it Really?
08-12-05-EB SES (How) “to See the Face of God”
08-20-05-EB SAT The Face of God Revisited
08-27-05-EH SAT Full Awareness
09-10-05-EB SAT Saying “Yes” to “Life”
09-17-05-EB SAT Foundations of Zen
10-15-05-EB SAT The Illusions We Live Out of
10-22-05-EH SES Right Food -- Right Effort
10-28-05-EB SAT Saying “Yes” to “Life,” Public Talk
10-29-05-EH SAT Rosa Parks
11-12-05-EB SAT Three Essential Qualities
11-19-05-EH SAT Eat Now -- Digest Later
12-03-05-EB SAT Q and A on Saying Yes
12-10-05-EH SAT Did You Help?
12-24-05-EB SAT Real Questions Can Help
12-27-05-EB SES Me Stuff and Being-Awareness
12-30-05-EH SES Hitting Bottom
01-15-06-EH SES Adversity and Awakening, Santa Rosa Zen Group Sesshin
01-21-06-EB SAT Concepts and Actions in Practice
01-28-06-EH SAT Vows and Precepts: Living ‘As if Awake’
02-11-06-EB SAT Me Stuff and Being-Awareness, Part 2
02-18-06-EB SES Perseverance, Willingness and Mercy
02-25-06-EH SAT Two-Faced Ego: “Bad Me” and Positive Persona
03-11-06-EB SAT Practice and Paradox
03-25-06-EB SAT Practicing with Pain
04-01-06-EH SAT Parrots, Rottweilers, Witness - Cultivating Awakening in Each Moment
04-11-06-EH SES Transitions – Appreciating Joko
04-14-06-EB SES The Essential Questions
05-06-06-EB SAT The Essential Questions, Part 2
05-13-06-EH SES The Lens of Dual Awareness
05-14-06-EB SES Cultivating Mercy
05-27-06-EH SAT Loss and Change as the Path
06-03-06-EB SAT The Things We Fear Most
06-17-06-EB SAT Approval Seeking as a Barrier to Love
06-23-06-EH SES Aspiration, Accountability and Amnesia
06-24-06-EB SES No Turning Back
07-08-06-EH SAT How can I help
07-15-06 EB SAT Transforming Anger
07-22-06 EH SAT Doesn’t Practice Work
07-29-06 EB SAT Practice Period
08-05-06 EH SAT Path to Awakening
08-12-06 EB SAT Inner Transformation
08-15-06-EB SES Lenses of Awareness
08-16-06-EH SES Life-ing + Loving, Compassion + Kindness
08-18-06-EB SAT More On Awareness
08-29-06-EB SAT Practice Period
09-09-06-EB SAT Cocoon of Fear
09-16-06-EH SAT Kindness, Communication & Relationships
10-14-06-EB SAT Separation and Connection
10-21-06-EB SES Just Be
10-22-06-EH SES Seeds of Awareness
10-28-06-EH SAT Needs, Wants & Practice
11-04-06-EB SAT Living Awake
11-18-06-EB SAT Camera Lens of Awareness
11-25-06-EH SAT Thankfulness
12-02-06-EB SAT Five Questions (again)
12-09-06-EH SAT Communication and Compassion
12-16-06-EB SAT Approval Seeking (part II)
12-23-06-EH SAT Tradition or What’s Most Important?
12-27-06-EH SES Awareness Sandwich
12-29-06-EB SES Five Basic Fears
12-30-06- SES Your Last Daisan Question (open)
01-06-06-EB SAT Levels of Understanding
01-27-07-EB SAT Forgiveness Revisited
02-03-07-EH SAT Emptiness and Running On Empty
02-10-07 EB SAT Three Phases in Practice
02-17-07-EB SES Let It Be
02-18-07-EH SES One Week to Live
02-24-07-EH SAT One Week to Live Revisited
03-03-07-EB SAT Working with Anger
03-10-07-EH SAT The Unexpected
03-24-07-EB SAT Practicing with Relationship Difficulties
03-31-07-EH SAT Memorial for Soen Kakagawa Roshi
04-04-07-EH SES Holidays, Holy Days and Wholeness
04-06-07-EB SES Loving Kindness Revisited
04-06-07-EB SES Loving Kindness Guided Meditation
04-14-07-EB SAT Fear and Practicing With It
04-28-07-EB SAT What is Zen
05-19-07-EH SAT Auschwitz: My Name is Sonia
05-26-07-EB SAT Trip to Auschwitz
06-02-07-EH SAT Atonement and Reconciliation An Introduction
06-09-07-EB SAT Confusion Revisited
06-16-07-EH SAT Reconciliation and Atonement II: Specifics
06-22-07-EB SES Nothing to Do, Nowhere to Go, No One to Be
06-23-07-EH SES Remorse and Reconciliation
06-30-07-EB SAT Basics of Sitting
07-07-07-EH SAT The Secret of Zen
07-14-07-EB SAT Practice Basics Revisited
07-21-07-EH SAT Illuminating the Shadows
07-28-07-EH SAT Reflections on the Center
08-04-07-EB SAT Healed in Our Difficulties
08-11-07-EB SAT Analyzing as a Detour
08-18-07-EB SAT Basic Practice Questions
08-22-07-EH SES Choreographing butterflies: procedures and the path of awakening
08-24-07-EB SES Sesshin practice
09-01-07-EH SAT Remembering Mother Theresa
09-08-07-EB SAT Practice: Three Essential Phases
09-15-07-EB SAT Practice Period
09-22-07-EB SAT Alarm Clocks
09-29-07-EH SAT Anger as Practice: part 1
10-06-07-EB SES Illusions we Live From
11-10-07-EB SAT Anger Revisited
11-17-07-EH SAT Emotions as Smoke
12-01-07-EB SAT Karma and the Path
12-08-07-EH SAT Mindful Change
12-15-07-EB SAT What is the Function of ZCSD
12-22-07-EH SAT On Steven and Ondrea Levine
12-27-07 EH SES Keeping Quiet
12-28-07 EB SES Perseverance is the Key
12-30-07 EB/EH  SES Open Daison
01-05-08 EB SAT Basic Practice Questions
01-12-08 EH SAT Practicing Presence
01-26-08 EB SAT The Three Phases of Practice Revisited
02-02-08 EH SAT Five Dimensions of HeartMind
02-09-08 EB SAT Fear
02-16-08 EB SES Curiosity - Saying Yes
02-17-08 EH  SES The Seeds of Heart-Mind: Part 1
02-23-08 EB SAT Fear Q and A: Part 3
03-01-08 EH SAT Seeds and Dimensions: A Blueprint
03-08-08 EB SAT More on Fear: Commenting on “The Protagonist” (film)
03-15-08 EH SAT Tuning Up the Sensing Instrument
03-22-08 EB SAT Confusion Revisited
03-27-08 EB SES Detours
04-05-08 EH SAT Changing Brains, Awakening Heartmind
04-12-08 EB SAT Seeking Approval
04-19-08 Student (Al Z.) SAT Mystery of Knowing/Not Knowing
04-26-08 EH SAT WIPITS revisiting an upset exercise
05-03-08 EB SAT Mind Mapping
05-10-08 Student (Kate W.) SAT Not Knowing
05-17-08 EH SAT Reactions Revisited
05-24-08 EB SAT Doubt and Surrender
05-31-08 EH SAT Breathing: the head, heart, and hara
06-07-08 EB SAT Gratitude
06-14-08 EH SAT Staying in Learning Mode
06-20-08 EB SES Let it Be
06-21-08 EH SES 2 Delusions
06-28-08 EB SAT Attachment
06-28-08 EB SAT Healing Into Impermanence
07-12-08 EB
 SAT The 3 Phases of Practice
07-19-08 EH
 SAT Cancer as the Path to Awakening
07-26-08 EB SAT Basic Questions
08-02-08 EB SAT Panel with Kate, Chuck & Craig
08-09-08 EH SAT Mind Mapping: Using the Mind to Clarify Thinking
08-13-08 EB SES What Is Practice?
08-14-08 EH SES Illuminating the Blame Game
08-23-08 EB SAT Relationships
08-30-08 EH SAT Relationship Difficulties: One Breath at a Time
09-06-08 EB SAT Practice Period
09-13-08 EH SAT Sleeper Cells
09-20-08 EB SAT On Happiness
09-27-08 EH SAT The Bermuda Triangle of Oblivion
10-15-08 Student-Al & June SAT Hunger and Thirst Reading
10-18-08 EB SAT Practice with Politics
10-25-08 Student-Chuck Sweet SAT Breath, Body and Being; Encounter with the mind of fear
11-01-08 EH SAT Seeds of Discontent: Which seeds are you watering?
11-08-08 EB SAT Detours
12-20-08 EB SAT Being a Student
12-27-08 EH SES Commitment II: Practice Commitment
12-28-08 EB SES 2008, Thin Ice, Lovingkindness
01-03-09 EH SAT Commitment and Renewal
01-10-09 Student - Fred Conway SAT
Practice and Persistence
01-17-09 EB SAT Going Deeper
01-24-09 EH SAT Gossip and Grievances on the Path to Awakening
01-31-09 EB SAT Music, Ritual Chanting, Being Open to Change
02-07-09 EH SAT Sounds and Silence (Chanting Part 2)
02-14-09 EB SES Reflect without Thinking
02-15-09 EH SES The Second Arrow
02-21-09 EB SAT Love & Relationships
02-28-09 EH SAT Qualities of Awakening; Generosity & Service
03-07-09 EB SAT Relationships Part #2
03-21-09 EB SAT More on Relationships
03-28-09 EH SAT Which Self? Where?
04-04-09 EB SAT What is This?
04-07-09 EB SES Attachment & Precision
04-08-09 EH SES Recognizing, Refraining, Returning, Remorse, & Reconciliation Practice
04-25-09 EB SAT Practicing with Money
05-02-09 EH SAT A Cautionary Monk’s Tale
05-09-09 Student-Al Z. SAT Zen Practicing & Poetry Writing
05-16-09  Student-Chuck S. SAT And.
05-23-09  EB SAT Practicing with Pleasure
05-30-09  EH SAT Recognizing, Refraining, & Returning
06-06-09  EB SAT Teaching
06-13-09  EH SAT Mixed Motives: Shadows and Light
06-19-09  EB SES Attachment & Identity
06-20-09  EH SES Compassion, Remorse, & Reconciliation-In Meditation
06-27-09 EB SAT Fundamentals – pt 1
07-04-09 EH SAT What Are You Watering?  Recognizing, Returning & Refraining
07-11-09 EB SAT Examining Our Practice
07-26-09 E & E ZCLA Practicing Relationships:  Ezra & Elizabeth at ZCLA
07-25-09 EH SAT Antitoxins & Antidotes
08-01-09 EB SAT Moving Toward Fear
08-08-09 EH SAT Fatigue, Compassion and the Open Heart
08-12-09 EH SES Magnets & Filings
08-14-09 EB SES Being Present
08-22-09 EH SAT History of Zen
08-29-09 EB SAT Practice Perversions
09-05-09 EH SAT Appreciating Thich Nhat Hanh
09-12-09 EB SAT Practice Perversions – part 2  (Especially Anger)
09-19-09 EH SAT Anger, Precepts & Practice
09-26-09 EB SAT Practice Perversions – part 3
10-03-09 EH SAT Practice Period:  What Seeds Are You Watering?
10-10-09 EB SAT Importance of Loving Kindness
10-10-09 EB SAT Loving Kindness Workshop
10-10-09 EB SAT Loving Kindness Guided Meditation
10-24-09 EH SAT Who Am I?
11-07-09 EB SAT What Kind of Zen is This?
11-14-09 Student-Kate W SAT A Well Rounded Practice:  Discipline, Clear Seeing, & Mercy
11-21-09 EB SAT What Kind of Zen is This?  Part 2
11-28-09 EH SAT Achilles Heel - part 1
12-05-09 EB SAT Forgiveness Practice
12-12-09 EH SAT Empathic Goodwill
12-19-09 EB SAT Forgiveness Practice – part 2
12-28-09 EH SES Trojan Horses
01-02-10 EH SAT New Year’s Reflections
01-09-10 EB SAT Practice Fundamentals Revisited
01-16-10 Student-Al Z SAT Seamless, Unbroken, Ever Present Awareness Just As It Is
01-23-10 EH SAT Impermanence & Uncertainty as the Path
01-30-10 EB SAT 3 Questions
02-13-10 EB SES Why “Just Being” is Such a Challenge
02-14-10 EH SES Being Burdened
02-16-10 EH SAT Interconnectedness, Concepts, & How-To
02-20-10 EB SAT Zendo Forms
02-27-10 EH SAT Serving & Satyagraha Inside & Out (Rosa Parks)
03-06-10 EB SAT A Long Walk
03-13-10 EH SAT The 4-H Club of Zen
03-20-10 EB SAT Zendo Forms – part 2
03-27-10 Student Panel SAT Practicing with Difficulties
03-30-10 EB SAT 3 Phases of Practice
03-31-10 EH SAT Finding Deliverance in Disturbances
04-10-10 EB SAT Happiness - part 1
04-17-10 EH SAT Conversation as Practitioners
04-24-10 EB SAT Happiness – part 2
05-01-10 EH SAT Catastrophizing Consciously
05-08-10 Student-Chuck S. SAT The Two Wolves
05-15-10 Student Panel SAT Practicing with Difficulties
05-22-10 EB SAT Happiness – part 3:  Entitlements
05-29-10 EH SAT Transforming the Fatigued Attitude
06-05-10 EB SAT What Blocks Happiness?  Caught in our Thoughts
06-11-10 EB SES Am I Truly Happy?  3 Practice Questions
06-12-10 EH SES Recognizing, Refraining & Returning
06-19-10 EH SAT Bearing Witness: Recognizing, Refraining, and Returning
06-26-10 EB SAT Happiness:  3 Questions
07-03-10 EH SAT Essentials of Liberation:  What Am I Leaving Out?
07-10-10 EB SAT Truly Happy – continued
07-17-10 EH SAT Talk the Talk
07-31-10 EH SAT Commitment &Self:  A Continuum
08-12-10 EH SAT Forgiveness:  Transforming Hard Mind to Heartmind

Tapes now available on CD:
582B   On Loving Kindness Practice, 11-20-99



INSTRUMENTS OF PEACE



Meditations and Music with Elizabeth Hamilton, Peter Sprague, and Ezra Bayda